My Husband Has No Interest in Sex with Me
I'm 26 my husband's 31 we married nearly 2 years ago. 6mos into our marriage, he stopped having sex. After 6mos I convinced him to go to a sex therapist w/me but nothing changed.
I began to internalize this, feeling ugly and depressed. He swore he was attracted to me. Porn is not an issue for me, except that he uses it to replace me, he told me it was just easier.
When we got engaged, I said my biggest fear was a sexless marriage. He promised it wouldn't be that way. He said he wished I would initiate more, but then it became only me initiating. I experimented and 1.5 years later we still haven't had any. When I wear lingerie, he says I'm trying too hard. I used to send him sexy texts/pics, nothing.
He is a wonderful father and husband, but sometimes I feel like he only married me because I was so willing to be a mother to his daughter.
I haven't cheated on him, but sometimes I think about it. I'm also thinking more and more about divorce but that kills me. I love him so much.