I'm disgusted by sex, but I didn't used to be
My husband and I used to have sex a couple of times per week. About four years ago I started to lose interest. We both figured it was due to stress. Unfortunately, I've gone from being uninterested to literally despising the idea and act of sex.
Whenever my husband wanted to have sex, I'd do it. I'd always read that you'll get in the mood as you go along. But that didn't happen with me. I'd get so sad and frustrated during the act that I'd cry quietly as we finished.
We now have sex once every 6 to 8 weeks. When we do I feel disgusted by the act and sad that I don't want it more. I'm 37 and have never been sexually or mentally abused or had children, and my husband has been incredibly patient with my lack of desire.
I would get counseling, but I've been unemployed for quite a while and we don't have the financial resources for it.
Where can I start to get past my feelings of disgust and sadness and back on the path to enjoying sex with my husband again.