i was only orgasmic with one partner (@14/5 years old). he left at about the same time my dad and brother moved out and my family bombed out - and i think the trauma of that combined with earlier sexual abuse by a family member kindof did my head in. I was very lonely as well at 16-18 years and noticed that all the 'cool' girls at school were 'loved' if they were hypersexual. i am guessing a little here but since that time i have literally had what i call 'prostitute syndrome' - altho i do actually enjoy and want sex i cannot climax with a partner - it is mostly a huge act on my part. faked orgasms included. it is not real. i dont know if i am so disconnected because of my past or because of fear - sex for me is almost a way to buy love and acceptance. I need to stop the ACT. i can't tell my current partner of 2 years that he has never actually given me a full orgasm - and i dont know how to reverse the last 30 years and start being the real me from here on out?