I don't want to degrade myself anymoreThe worst mistake of my life is watching porn, I started watching it since I was in 7th grade, I used to get off on nice sexy female friendly porn, but soon I started looking for more degrading and hurtful porn to get off on. Now I feel like only these kind of porn get me off, even with I'm with my SO, I find it hard to be emotionally present and cum. When I mastrubate now, I think of degrading, humiliating scenarios where one is passed around, used and spit on or treated badly. I don't really want to do that to myself, I don't like pain, i don't even like these concepts in real life and I don't want this to hurt my relationship because I really love my SO, and am physically attracted to them. I hate this, and I hate myself for liking this, please help me get out of it and tell me what's wrong. I want to stop watching such porn and most importantly stop thinking about such things and treating myself so badly. Please help me. It's mentally affecting me.