When I was maybe 9 years old, I found my mother's back massager. It had a very strong vibration setting. Before I even knew what a clitoris was, I was sneaking off with it and using it on my clit for extended amounts of time. I continued to use this massager as a vibrator for years, up into my teens. I would finger myself as I used it, and eventually began to experience what I consider to be an orgasm. I'm 21 now and when I have sex with my boyfriend, or when he performs oral or fingering, I really enjoy everything, but never come close to the sensation I get when I use the vibrator. Fingering myself without the vibrator is never enough, either. I'm worried that's the only way I can orgasm, because its what I used when I began to explore my body. I've tried to stop using the vibrator when I masturbate and only use my fingers to stimulate my clitoris and vagina, but I always end up using the vibrator to finish. Am I addicted to the vibrator? Is it possible for me to orgasm without it?